3:30am ramblings

Most nights I get some style of sleep, whether it be “exhausted” sleep or “refreshing” sleep or just “I fell asleep” sleep. Then every now and then I get one of them “I can’t bloody sleep” nights!!! You know the ones where you try to lie down and use your normal routine for falling asleep, when that fails you try a different position or play on your phone in the hope you fall asleep without the said phone heading you in the face as your grip loosens on it!

Tonight, I tried the usual routine which was to breath slowly in and out whilst waiting for my body to relax into the bed then I normally drop off to sleep. Nope! That didn’t work but then could I really expect it to when my OH is wiggling around on his side of the bed trying to entice one of the cats to curl up, who by the way wasn’t having any of it. Then all went quiet from his side so I try again but then realise he’s put his sleep app on; this sleep app is supposed to play soothing relaxing sounds to aid you to fall asleep! Ideal I hear you think but no tonight’s choice is rain with thunder and lightening!!!! Argh!!!! Rain on its own is not too bad, in fact I love the sound of rain and find it therapeutic, just not when you suddenly get a rumble of thunder or crash of lightening!

By now it’s gone 2am so I know I’m not going to get much sleep tonight so head off downstairs for a cuppa tea; hoping it might soothe me enough for some sleep. Gets to 3am and I’m still wide awake so I head for the sofa I use for a snooze on an afternoon when fatigue kicks in from my health needs. I’m getting comfortable when two of our three cats decide to come down to investigate why Mum is up at stupid o’clock. They’re walking round and round when the youngest suddenly starts scratting at the open hinge of a door, go and investigate to find there’s a hidden cat treat which youngest scoffs as soon as I free it from under the door; believe me this cat eats anything!! I go and settle down again thinking yay might get some sleep now even if it’s only a couple of hours it’s better than nowt. Ha!!! That’s a laugh as I’m just about settled when all of a sudden the sound of the OH snoring reaches my ears, *rolls eyes in disbelief*. This is the same chap who has been sleeping solidly and silently for the last 2 or more hours!

All I can say in my defence is thank god for the “lack of sleep” training my three kids gave me when they were babies because tomorrow I’ll be on autopilot again just like I was all those years ago when my eldest was born.



Today is a happy feeling day as last night I finished my 5th pair of socks!!! Which now means I can start my new knitting project, oh happy me!!!

Gorgeous socks done on 2.5mm dpns. Pattern from a sock kit bought many years ago.

My new project is one I did about this time last year for one of my friends, I loved how hers came up that much that I'm doing again now I've found the perfect yarn for it. Pattern is by James C Brett (info in pictures) and calls for chunky yarn, it's supposed to be a sweater but I bought extra yarn so that I can make it into a sweater dress instead as I love wearing leggings during the wintertime; I mean who doesn't love comfort clothing in the winter!!

Decided this time to try some bamboo knitting needles that I found in a charity shop, these ones are 5mm which you need for the ribbing and then I'll be changing to 6mm for the main bulk of the pattern. I've cast on so let's get it on ….

#newproject #knitting #jamescbrett #chunkyyarn #sweater


Since my last visit here to Blogland I've been helping get my 16yr old ready for his first time with NCS (National Citizen Service). He's currently away on his first phase which is a residential outward bound type weekend. To join up was his idea which for him is a brilliant move in confidence since the beginning of the year when he came to us as parents and told us that he was transgender and wanted to live as a male from then on. As a parent you always want what is best for your child and what makes them happy, so I am 100% behind him with this decision. Since the New Year I am so proud to call him my son and see how his confidence has shot forwards and upwards in his outlook to life, especially as he was also diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome when he was 10 which has its own social awkwardness and anxiety problems.

With regards to my own health I've been coming to terms with the fact that I can't have operations that were planned for this summer. This was all due to having a batch of blood tests done and a result coming back that I may have Von Willebrand Disease which has problems with clotting factors with your blood (further information on link). Until I find out next month from the specialist what is happening regarding this diagnosis I have found that doctors aren't willing to schedule me for surgery unless I happen to present as an emergency where life is at stake.

With already having depression for several years, this news of another diagnosis knocked me side ways and my mental health took a battering. I can do the basic auto pilot stuff but my emotions went on a rollercoaster ride and I'm sorry now for anyone I've upset in the last few weeks. As with the nature of depression, once I realised where I was heading I tried to stop it by making myself do things that realise 'feel good factors'; in my case that's been gardening, bike riding and walking (even if it was 10 o'clock at night!!). Depression is controlled by tablets and techniques I've learnt over the years but with all the stress I have in my life (my own health + two teenagers on the autism spectrum + a relationship) I know it's a clever balancing act so it's not really surprising that every now then I have a wobble or two.

Forgot to take photos of my gardening exploits but I have been crafting as well. Here's my update on the ten-stitch Tunisian Crochet blanket and my knitted socks.

#mentalhealth #depression #knitting #tunisiancrochet #life


Bit late but never mind, time goes fast when you’re having fun anyway! 😊
Today decided to work on my new Tunisian Crochet ten-stitch blanket using my stash of various dk yarns from over the years. I had started it before today but this is where I’ve got to so far plus the next few colours ive decided on using, albeit I’m not sure as yet if which order they’ll be used.

I also went to Hobbycraft and found some of this James C Brett Marble Chunky Glamour on sale at £3.45 a ball instead of £6.90. Was only this shade (MCG5) was on sale but hey it’s a hefty saving when you need 5 balls of the yarn to make your knitted dress. The dress in question is actually a jumper pattern that will be elongated by doing the body pattern length twice.

#wip #crochet #yummyyarn 


Morning folks! Setting up for another day of stitching today, doesn’t seem like I did much yesterday but I almost filled in the pale lilac on the mermaid dress on the two pages I’m currently working.
Today I’m hoping to finish the last bit of the dress before moving onto her left hand and the yellow shawl she’s wearing.
So here’s today’s starting point …

#WIP #cross-stitching #craftysunday #stitchybug


Wahoo!!! My stitchy bug has finally returned from being AWOL.

Woke up this morning and actually decided to work on some stitching of this long standing WIP of a mermaid. 
It’s a big project that has just been sat in its hoop stand staring at me from different parts of the conservatory, almost as if it’s saying “you will finish me, you know you will”
Couldn’t tell you who it’s by as it’s all in Chinese/Japanese but here is where I am today and will update later on ….

#stitchybug #cross-stitch #wip #saturdaycrafting

15 March 2017

Feels like ages since I’ve posted on here. I’ve managed to finish the cat latch hook rug and it looks fantastic, cats seem to approve of it as I keep finding one of them curled up on it at times.

I’ve had a few health scares recently too which are now all being sorted one way or another. Just waiting on appointments to come round so that I can hopefully get answers and help. My main problem is with my joints as I have Hypermobility Syndrome which affects all joints in the body plus the collagen in your muscles and connective tissues. It is flaring at the moment in my right shoulder which is now stopping me from enjoying my beloved cross stitching as it just causes too much pain but somehow I can still do my knitting and crochet which is a blessing. The shoulder is affecting my daily life as well which is why it’s under investigation as I also have Osteoarthritis and doctors are wondering if it’s now spread to my shoulder as well as my left knee and facet joints in my back.

I’m currently working on a blanket and baby cardigan using King Cole Candystripe in Caramel (shade number 1658). It works up really lovely and is so soft to touch; bonus being that because it’s 100% acrylic it will wash and wear lovely. The blanket is being worked in crochet using a chevron style stitch, the way this stitch works is you cast on in batches of 8 stitches plus 1 for the foundation then add 3 add the end as part of the first treble. I took the stitch from a book called Handbook of Crochet Stitches by Betty Barnden, it’s nickname is my crochet bible as its so useful when designing blankets for everyone as i can pick and choose what stitches I want to use together. The cardigan is from a pattern called Puerperium Cardigan by Kelly Brooker and is available from http://www.pekapekapatterns.com.

4th September 2016

Been working away on different crafts since my last post. I’ve managed to pick up my very old WIP of a latchhook rug kit with cats and mice on, think I’ve had the kit about 17 years – oops! – but it is now finished! Yay! Pictures below show the front and the back.


I’ve also been working slowly on my socks, haven’t really had much time with having the kids off on school hols. They go back on Tuesday so should get some crafty time without interruptions then. I’ve also been working on a latch hook kit that I bought for my mum many years ago. Unfortunately, she hasn’t got the interest to complete so my daughter started on it earlier this year; now my eldest son has decided to carry out some work on it. The first picture is where it was when we picked it up earlier today, second picture is where my son finished before he put it away. 

Progress start

23rd August 2016

Last few days have seen a few tough decisions being made, one being the decision to wind up my business and try to sell the stock via eBay or other places. The other decision is not to appeal my transfer to PIP from DLA decision whereby they decided I didn’t qualify so I will wait a few months once I’ve healed properly from my knee surgery then reapply again. This second decision sees me without an income of my own but because my partner works I can’t claim any benefits; my partner has agreed that I will just become a housewife until I am in a position to go out to work again. I have two teenagers still living at home and to be quite honest looking after them and my partner is a full time job anyway!
My crafts will keep me from going loopy and this weekend I managed to get the backstitch finished on the stocking and started another one. Each one is only a maximum of 42 x 45 on each chart so don’t take long to do once I get the chance to sit and stitch. I’ve also got a knitting project on the go, I’ve finally managed to finish my first pair of socks and now I’m onto my second pair; the socks get knitted at night time as I can’t see to stitch properly after about 8:30pm at the moment.

Stocking finished with backstitch.

Progress so far on the next stocking, think this is supposed to be two turtle doves but not 100% sure.

Finished socks, they are so comfy. The pattern is from a booklet bought from Lidl along with the yarn as a sock kit.

Start of second pair of socks. Had the yarn for a while as it looked pretty but didn’t know what to do with it.